I am not having much success getting students. I get inquiries and humor people but no one has been so serious as to come and learn from me. I do not know if it is because of my age, speaking style, ability to communicate information properly or their inability to understand. For whatever reason, the results are zero. People have come and gone but I have no students.
A most interesting thing in regards to this is that I am improving my ability to speak, explain and demonstrate. As a blunt knife gets sharper with each stroke, I am slowly – very slowly – getting more and more experience explaining myself. Although I cannot progress and improve my teaching, my “sales pitch” is becoming more and more honed. I notice it and its quite nice! I do not wish to deceive anyone so I ignore the results – although I am aware of them. I have no desire to teach in India, to Indians. I simply do not. If others wish to teach, then let them do so. But I would rather teach my fellow Americans and New Yorkers.
A thing that I am noticing is that there is a gap – from within myself – of teaching for self development vs fighting. I do not like to fight. I am not particularly adept at it. This may be the case of my avoidance in propagating my kung fu. But I wonder. If I do become adept at it, will I add it to the curriculum? I do not believe I will. I may possibly do so though. I do not know. I would prefer not to add it but if I could not get students in the more natural, peaceful manner, would I sell myself out? I do not know. This thought troubles me. I must reconcile with it.
But things are improving in their own way slowly, piece by piece. I should not rush. The more time I have to myself, the more I can improve. The more I improve the more I can demonstrate. The more I demonstrate, the greater is the “awe factor” people will have.