My training is going half-way nowadays. I figured that after a Vipassana session, I could get back on track with relative ease. That and I could move to more impressive measures such as isometric kung fu exercises – horse stance, zhan zhuang with tan saus, separating the joints.
It hasn’t worked out that way. Every time I go to Vipassana, another layer peels off. I move forward a inch but seem to stay in a empty space for some time afterwards. It passes – merely takes time.
Training in a similar pattern daily is alright. It doesn’t make a whole lot of difference. I realized that techniques are all embedded in the forms. There’s no need to learn separate techniques. That, and after some time, there really aren’t techniques any more. The rising is good. But since I got back, it doesn’t feel enough. Before I went, I was going 45 minutes meditations in the morning and evening on my own time – in my own way.
Another thing is that I don’t have a competent chi-sau partner. Most of my training revolves around rising, the forms and kicking + balancing practice. It’s alright in a way but feels rather stagnate after awhile. Chi sau is necessary to test out my level of rising. Nima strongly advocating finding a partner. But it’s not easy to find someone actually dedicated to training. Those individuals are rare. Even I wouldn’t put myself in that category. I am dedicated, yes, but not to that extent. I wish I were but I have different fish to fry.
Let us see what occurs. I still have some time before my next experience. A lot can change in a second. What to say of months.